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only once but let me [Jul. 18th, 2007|02:17 am]
i feel different about everyone.
i feel the same in my head and my ways
but i treat people differently
this is a paradox.

i don't think america is the right place for me.
for a very long time,
i thought about the spirit of america, and thought that there were major changes that needed to take place.
then it was more localized. its the government. and it is corrupt.
however corruption is everywhere.
i really thought about it.
and the part that stands out to me is the spirit of america, and in some ways, as i understand it, it is the freedom to make something out of yourself with no help of others. very individualistic.
this is not for me.
i don't need the economic freedom to be a millionaire. i much rather have universal health care.
i don't want to be in the most competitve work force. i want to have a family. and a government that will take care of me when i have children and when i am old.
i dont want an individualistic society. i want a community that looks out for one another.
i dont think America is bad, i just don't think it's right for me.
the only problem is, being in the right place for me takes a back seat to my first priority,
being available to my loved once, that happen to feel right at home in America. I hate that the fact that i work means im supporting a war. they take money out of my check to fight a war that i am completly and utterly against. and that makes me a hippocrate.
i think it's the governments job to protect it's citizens. being in iraq has given america the illusion of protection. but what about our elderly? what about our sick? what about our poor? what about our disabled? the illiterate? Aids. i need a more "people-centered" community. that's motivation enough for me to take pride in my work. to not cheat the system. but feel connected and respectful to my home.
the America I know is not like this. this may be right or wrong, but regardless, this country is in conflict with my morality. here lies the dilemma.

[User Picture]From: antihero983
2007-07-18 03:53 pm (UTC)
thats why im saving up to move to england. its not a huge step, but its better than here.
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[User Picture]From: siffil
2007-07-19 02:29 am (UTC)
i feel what your saying for real
...and im in the fucking army...
...but me in the army is a whole different story...

but yea, i just wanted to say i feel what your saying
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